It's Saturday

I had a scrapbook marathon last night.
Allison had given me a note that she wrote me and I treasured it so much that I had to scrapbook it.

I'm so hungry

I wish i could make that food on that plate be real again. HAHA!
I need a life...and someone to cook and clean for me. Didn't win the million today...maybe Sunday. Check back then. :-) ♥

Update - Today is Wednesday...thank God half the week is over already!

I made it to Wednesday. I tell ya...I've been trying to think positive and speak what i want. "Dennis is gonna win the lottery tomorrow and we won't have to work another day in our life."

I'm exhausted. I forgot to take my Naprox this morning and I had so much pain in my pelvis. I went to the doctor's again today. He confirmed the results of my ultrasound. (Whatever the technician told me). Only he added that there was a large fibroid on my uterus. That I didn't know. I'll have to research it. I don't believe they do anything for those...except maybe get rid of them when they do laparoscopy?! I had one before...but it was smaller. The cyst on my left ovary...is hemorragic. (Yay!! No cancer!). Thank you for your prayers...i was so worried. There is fluid in my abdomen...could be from the endometriosis or it could be from the hemorragic cyst. Who knows. I am waiting for my referral to see the gyneacologist.

Dr. S gave me another prescription for different pain killers, cuz the ones he gave me do shit all. (I can't fall asleep at night...my stomach is extremely distended and it feels like there is a grapefruit sitting on my ovaries. I'll keep you updated. I go for another ultrasound in middle of April to check on growth of the cyst and fibroid.

I'm really tired. Going to bed now. Remember...i'll be a millionaire tomorrow! ;) ♥ Love ya's all...HI DAVID and SANDY!!! Hope the Baby arrives soon!!

Here is tonight's scrapbook layout. Kayla and Jory playing Playstation. :-)

Family Ties

I was so excited. My march kit from the scrapbook club arrived in the mail today. I had to scrap tonight even though I am completely and utterly exhausted.

Jory chopped his hair off!

His dad took him for a haircut this weekend. (Yes, I said it was okay - although I didn't really want him to.) Jory just didn't like hair in his face anymore, and he was supposed to get a 'trim' not a buzz cut!! Oh well...look how handsome he is now. :-)





On another note...OMG OMG OMG...i am so in love with Michael Buble's new song, "EVERYTHING". You can soooooo tell that man is in love. Like me. ♥ Speaking of which...Dennis is amazing! ♥♥

Mom and Dad...waiting for my gyneacologist appointment. There was no cancer. :-) God is good!! Doctor S gave me pain killers though...i'm muddling through. Some days are worse than the others. Today...ain't too bad. Love you guys! xo

That's my Boy!!

Just HAD to share a few of the lovely comments received on Jory's report card today.

Religion - "Jory displays a good awareness of the social injustices that exist in our world and that God calls us to treat each other equally. He is also able to identify most of the strategies used in dealing with family stress and peer relationships." (WELL NO KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

"Jory's excellent work ethic sets a great example for all the boys in the classroom."

THAT A BOY!!!!!!!!!!! You're gonna make a great doctor someday...or engineer, High School Principal or Prime Minister... ♥

Update on ME/US

I'm in alot of pain today. I'll have to call the doctor tomorrow, because I still haven't heard from him. The waiting is driving me nuts. It appears that it gets painful after sitting or standing for too long. My back feels like it's cracked in half and my ovaries feel like they exploded. That kink i had in my back last week -- well Dennis took care of that. It had disappeared by Saturday morning. It came back today, the minute i sat in that darn computer chair in my office. I am beginning to hate that friggin' place. I have been working way to much. TOO MUCH.

I scrapbooked. I think it's the only time I don't feel pain. I can concentrate on the task at hand and forget about everything else. Although...i must say...everything in the 'love' department could not be better. (Other than actually being the mrs.) ;) ♥ Dennis has been so supportive and wonderful. Keep praying for us. ♥ We both need miracles. (Collectively and seperately). XO

Kayla and Jory are back to school! I can't believe it...Jory's notice about Graduation pictures came in today. He's gonna have his grade 6 grad this June. I guess I'll have to buy him dress pants and a cool lookin shirt. (Don't think his camouflage attire will be very appropriate!) HA! I should trim his hair too. (Although I do think he is quite handsome with his golden locks).

Tonight's scrapbook session consists of Jory the Sk8er Boy. These were taken last year in the front yard. :-)

It's march break!

I've been so busy at work, the week has just flown by...I can't believe it's Wednesday already. The kids went to Nana and Dianes last night for a sleepover. They hung out with Steph and Jon today. They said they had a blast. Sorry..i didn't get to drop in Stepher's...but we had to rush home to be home before Lost started. We are die hard friggin fans. HA! I worked till 5:30, so got the evening started a bit late.

I scrapped tonight. I shall leave you all with the photo and these two pics I took of Jory. HAHA. He's such a skaterboy wannabe. LOL! Look at his shoes and the camouflage. Have I mentioned how much I love Dennis lately? Oh...I DID!? Really? (hehehe). Keep praying for me. I've been in alot of pain past couple of days...trying not to think about it...story of my life eh? The advil helps a little...but not much. Still haven't heard back from the doctor with my appointment. What the heck is taking so long? GRRR.

No Limits

"In friendship or in love, the two side by side raise hands TOGETHER to find what one cannot reach alone." That was the inspiration for this layout tonight. So friggin true.

And this is my ' fun ' layout. It's friday. Had to do something fun and something to lighten up the air. Was a real crappy week. It's better now tho.

Crappy all around

So much going on. I can't make tails or heads of anything. I had my ultrasound today. It's not very good. My left ovary has a huge cyst on it. The right ovary has a cluster of small cysts on it. There are endometrial cysts, functional and polycystic cysts (her guess anyways). She mentioned there was fluid around the cysts and that there was clear evidence of internal bleeding. GREAT! She was amazed I hadn't made a visit to the hospital for the pain on that one. I told her...I'm so immune to pain in the past four years...i'm numb. Honest to God. What else could go wrong??

I'll be going to the doctor in about a week or so...to set up more appointments and likely be having surgery again...only this time...it could be more.

Where is my 'SUNSHINE' when i need it? Somebody throw me a friggin rope...

Focused

Don't worry...I'll be alright. That's a given. I get through everything. But frig...I've had enough already.

This is the layout i scrapped, cuz i was feeling inspired by own self pity today.

My thoughts, my fears. My weaknesses.

Wisdom is knowing what to do next, Virtue is doing it.
"I don't want to be tolerable anymore. I am tired of being patient. Strong? Yeah rite! If I close my eyes and let myself fall will anyone be there to catch me? If I make mistakes...will I ever forgive myself?

I must stay focused...two things first

I lifted this off Erin's Note:
It's a good one.

You can only type two words.
Not as easy as you might think.


1. Where is your cell phone?
in purse

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
not here

3. Your hair?
dry dull

5. Your father?'
loves me

6. Your favorite thing?
his love

7. Your dream last night?
about mandy

8. Your favorite drink?
double double

9. Your dream car?
Chevy Cobalt

10. room you're in?
computer room

11. Your ex?
hate him

12. You are?
pissed off

13. What do you want to be in 10 years?
hot mamma (ha)

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
me, kayla

15. What you're not?
a doormat

16. Muffins?
blue berry

17. One of your wish list items?
new car

18. Where are the?
divorce papers

19. The last thing you did?
start car

20. What are you wearing?
blue jeans

21. Your TV?
is small

22. Your pets?
are annoying

23. Your computer?
i like

24. Your life?
it's complicated

25. Your mood?
pms'ing cranky

26. MISSING?
a life

27. What are you thinking about right now?
plotting revenge

28. Your car?
is cold

29. Your work?
too much

30. Your summer?
can't wait

31. Your relationship status?
in love

32.Your favorite color?
black, brown

33. When is the last time you laughed?
on weekend

34. Last time you cried?
last night

35. Your Hero?
My Dad

Still Crazy

After all these years...YES, i'm still nuts. I've passed down my inherent nutsoishness...to my beautiful daughter. She is corrupted with 'crazy' genes. God, I love this layout. :-) ♥♥♥ § ♥ ↨ ↨ ☻ §

Baby...It'll be Alright

Had a real crappy day. (I sensored that word). This scrap layout was a reflection of exactly what I was feeling today.

Journal reads:

I want to tell you
whenever I feel weak, sad, frustrataed or just stressed out, you are always there for me and when you say those words, I not only believe you...I trust you.

Jory's Birthday is now a scrapbook masterpiece

As you can tell I've been busy scrapbooking. Okay...so it helps keep my mind off of smoking. During this very stressful and busy time at work, and nearing the finale of my divorce...I'm really quite stressed. Scrapbooking helps me relax and feel accomplished. Voila...this is a beauty! (I used the tissue paper as the background that he got from Grandma and Grandpa's Birthday present.) This turned out tres sweet!