Long Weekend – and a catch up!

I’ve been back to work for a week and a half, and YES, i enjoy having my life back to normal.  (If there really is such a thing as normal).  I’ve been pounding away each day…walking my butt off and trying to keep my mind busy, so I won’t think about Dennis.  The nights are quiet and I miss him still, but I know that I will be okay – in time.  I keep remembering all the good times and happiness we shared and it makes my heart extremely sad not to be with him anymore – but then as my friend Sarah tells me, “Remember the bad times too”…so I am, and it’s helping to keep things in perspective.  I just deserve and want so much MORE.

Kayla asked me why I still have his pictures up in my bedroom on the walls and on the nightstand and I just smiled and say, “when I'm completely over him, I'll put them away”, but for now…they are still there.  In the back of my mind I am secretly wishing that he will realize he NEEDS, WANTS and LOVES me more than he lets on.  I won’t hold my breath though! 

I watched “UP IN THE AIR” last night – that movie with George Clooney.  And there was this dialogue in the movie…George Clooney ditches everything he’s ever believed in his life to go after the woman he’s fallen in love with – only to discover that she was not what he thought she was.  Her response, “You are an escape. You're a break from our normal lives. You're a parenthesis.”

Parenthesis.  Wow.  That’s totally what I felt like.  A parenthesis.  A break from the mundane of his everyday life…but not the reason for it.  Sucks.  He was my main reason for smiling.  Not the same at all.  Why should I make him my entire world, when I was  just a part of his?

Okay, enough depressing stuff.

Kayla’s friends all went to their PROM this weekend.  She decided she didn’t want to go, mainly because it would have cost me too money…and I’m glad, cuz I would rather save my money for other things.  She had some friends over for a mini put party and a sleepover.  She had fun!

Today, we went for a long hike at Stony Swamp.  We usually go there to feed the birds, but we didn’t see one this time!  It was weird.  Anyways, we walked 6 kms in the heat and we’re totally exhausted right now, so we’re going to relax and watch a movie.  I wanted to take a minute now to wish Mom, David and Stella a very happy birthday!!  We love you all so much and hope you all had a wonderful special day!  xoxoxo.

Here are some pictures from our walk.  Enjoy.

 

Was it my shorts?

I walked 5 km today.  Just recovering from a 24 hour intestinal flu, but I was so determined to get out.  So, I slept in…till like 11 AM this morning and diddle dawdled around the house.  At 2:00 PM, I realized it was getting late in the day and I should get walking before I changed my mind.  So I grab a shower, get dressed and walk out the door, makeup-less, hair hanging down sopping wet.  I threw on a  black tank top and grabbed the first pair of shorts out of my ‘summer clothes’ drawer. I threw on a huge pair of bug eyed sunglasses.  (It gets hot and sunny out there you know!)  I knew I didn’t look good, but I didn’t care.  It’s not a fashion show!  I’m going out there to sweat and get ‘err done!

As I’m walking down the last stretch of road, I see the City Bus that my Kayla and Jory take to school.  This is a special bus, so I knew they were on it.  I wave like a mad woman.  (teehee).  I walk faster to try and meet my kids at home at the same time.  I see them get off the bus, but I’m still about 10 mins away.  I begin to wave like a mad woman again.  When I get home, I find a note on the door. (see pic below)

What??? Was it my bright aqua coloured sweat shorts??  Was it my big bug eyed sunglasses?  Was it my un-straightened hair or makeup-less face?  Was it my shoes??  Was it me swinging my arms, while walking with a huge water bottle in my hands??  What was it???  Please tell me Jory.  What makes me Gay??

“Mom, your shorts are retarded!!  AND you were waving at us!!”

Bwahahahahahaha….Don’t you just love teenagers??   LOL – literally!  I laughed so hard, I think I peed myself.  ha!

Happy Birthday Stephanie!

Friday, Stephanie turned 18!!  Hard to believe.  I remember when Stephanie was born, I was pregnant with Kayla and Stella was a Godsend to me many times because she became the person I’d call to find things out!  :)  Anyways, i remember how tiny she was and how cute.  Now she’s still cute, but she’s tall and beautiful!  They really do grow so quickly.  Kayla enjoyed spending some time with Stephanie over the weekend to celebrate her birthday.  She had a tremendous time!

I made her this album.  She really liked it.

** I apologize for the colouring on some of these photos…they are slightly skewed due to poor lighting.

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And here is a close of the journaling jotters I made/stamped.
Notice…yet another great way to use the leftover Prima Packaging…and recycle.  Great Tip for Earth Day!  :) 
The rest of the weekend was grand.  Sens lost against the Penguins in the first round of the playoffs.   So disappointing.  They tried hard though.

I finally drove!  I went out to see Dennis this weekend.  I needed to get away and change the scenery.  It was so fun and I have been really feeling good.  In fact, today I walked 45 mins around the neighbourhood and just soaked up the sun and sunshine and listened to the birds.  I am getting so tired of doing nothing and being inactive.  I’m looking forward to getting back into shape.  :)
I actually started a new blog today, to inspire myself and motivate myself back into shape.  It’s all about my walking!!
You can find it here. 

Today, I feel good about me.   Tomorrow will be even better.  :)

 

Funny story and a great weekend

We had the most amazing weekend.  I love family weekends at D’s house.  Saturday, we had a barbeque and had the most gigantic hamburgers I’ve ever had!!  They are called Gigantico from President’s Choice…HOLY cow those things are fricken’ huge!!  D and I ate so much, we ended up having a 2 hour nap after dinner.  ha!!

So, today it was absolutely gorgeous outside!!  We took advantage of the sunshine and cleared up the garden and planted some summer bulbs.  THEN the kids washed the cars – Jory vacuumed mine and then he and A cleaned the inside.  Later, all the kids washed it down on the outside.  It was really neat because D let Jory move the car up and down the driveway.  That was Jory’s first  time riding the car!  He looked so excited! 

I decided to treat the kids for their hard work, and took them to the Dairy Queen.  I got one of those big waffle cone sundaes!!  MMMMMMMMMMM.

We were having such a great day, we didn’t want it to end.  So, the kids decided to take a walk in the bush behind D’s house.  We equipped them with a cell phone, a camera and a challenge.  The Challenge was to walk to the other side and take a picture of the field.  About a half hour later, we get a phone call from JORY who is frantic. 

“OMG, we didn’t make it to the field, we’re coming  home cuz we found a deer leg and fur….and we’re scared to the death there is a bear in here!!” 

So…within minutes they were back at the house, reliving the whole event and all that they had seen.  They convinced us to take a walk back in there – and we got a little lost.  HA…we were gone for two hours.  I’m so beat right now from the sun…and all the exercise.  I actually think I have a little sunburn!! 

Anyways…here’s a few pics that the kids took to chronicle their event!  I’m raising scrapbookers you know!!  LOL!

 

It was kinda like a scene out of CSI!  LOL .
I forgot to tell you…Jory got a 91% on his speech.  He may be selected to do the school finals!!  I’ll try and post his speech tomorrow.  Love you’s all!  xo

Happy Easter!

I am so Grateful that God sent his Son to die for me that many years ago and that today I am still saved by his blood, and his amazing Grace.  Thank you God, for Jesus and your never failing love. 

This afternoon the kids and I decided to go for our annual walk at Stony Swamp.  We love to visit this place, because the chickadees fly really close and feed right out of your hands – if  you stand still enough.  The kids say it’s an adrenaline rush when you feel their little feet and wings fluttering.  This was one time I really wished I’d had had a better camera. 

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We also watched the squirrels and chipmunks eat seeds and nuts that others had left for them.

We got some really cool pics of nature at it’s best.  I don’t know about you, but I find nature very artistic!!  AND just plain freakin’ cool!!  Check out these pics!

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AND what would a beautiful walk on a beautiful Sunny Good Friday afternoon be, without some portrait shots??  Don’t laugh at my attire.  I was dressed for comfort!!

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AND I love these ‘journey’ pics I took of the kids.  I always love the perspective.  It was a beautiful day!  Happy Easter Everyone!!  Hope your weekend is blessed as am I.

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